1st post in UK.

hey ppl, i miss you!

have got so many photos to upload but that gotta wait. cos my internet connection is not up yet. now using my friend's lappie.

sigh everyone's room is so neat except mine. have got so many things to pack. im gonna finish packing by today!!

anyway leicester's pretty fine. chilly weather, strong winds and quiet neighbourhood.

it's a small city, really. we've been walking to the ciy centre and back several times a day. cabs here are so expensive. 3mins ride costs bout 5 pounds (S$15). fellow singaporean seniors have been bringing us around to the different restaurants to eat. and of cos it's not cheap. went to Morrison's supermarket ytd to get some food stuff. guess we really have to start cooking or we'll go broke soon.

im gonna have 4 neighbours or so i hope. currently only met 2. a malaysian indian girl and this guy from athens. they're pretty quiet. think im the noisiest, always slamming my cupboard doors, main doors and all. the wall's in my accommodation are super thin. think they can even hear me talking on the phone.

but other than that, im quite happy with my room. pretty spacious, clean and security is good.

ok im gonna end here. have to go cook up a big breakfast with 2 fellow singaporeans. oh the kitchen's nice. tata. back soon later. hopefully.

love all of you! SO MUCH!

wait for me.

spent almost the entire day with rich.

though most of it was spent searching for my travel neccessities, i still treasured and loved every second of it.

again i got pissed off over the slightest things and as usual, he tolerated my nuisances. seriously, i can be an extremely difficult girl to handle at times and i am only too blessed to have someone patiently staying by my side through it all.

at the end of the day, we hugged each other tight. this time i could no longer hold back my tears. he broke down terribly and i wept.

i've never felt so sad in my life. the pain of leaving someone you love so much behind is too unbearable. especially when you know everyday he wishes you don't have to go.

im sorry rich but i can't grant you that wish of yours as much as i want to.

but i'll make your greatest wish come true - to you i'll stay true and i'll be back only for you.

this song describes how i feel of you and me.

Unbreakable - Westlife

[Shane:]
Took my hand
Touched my heart
Held me close
You were always there

By my side
Night and day
Through it all
Maybe come what may

Swept away on a wave of emotion
Overcaught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine

[All:]
This love is
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable

[Bryan:]
Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here

Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong

I've been touched by the hands of an angel
I've been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine

[All:]
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why

[Mark:]
This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this over
Our love still remains

[All:]
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
Cause each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why

[Shane:]
This love is unbreakable



as long as you wait for me.

all that i can't leave behind.

the past 3 days 2 nights were beautiful.

though there were some frustrations, misunderstandings, screams and shouts here and there, still i had one of the best times in my life. cos other than my family, i got to spend the entire 3D2N with people whom i am closest to. these people who have walked with me through tears and laughters and everything else - i love you.

in my previous blog, i mentioned in one of the entries that i was getting kinda excited as the day drew nearer. but now that i've only 4 days left in my homeland, the initial hesitation, doubt, fear and nostalgia are all back again. and i feel them stronger than before. so strong they overshadow any trace of excitement in me.

suddenly im not looking forward to this trip anymore.

suddenly, im beginning to hate myself for choosing this route.

suddenly, im afraid.

how am i going to spend 3 years without my closest people around? the very people who understands me the most and who have learned to accept both my perfections and flaws. who am i going to bitch to? who can i cry to?

yeah i will certainly have new friends, like how i made more friends in my 3 years of poly life. but i truly believe that these bosom buddies of mine whom i've joked and cried with for the past 7 years are the only people whom i can feel at ultimate ease with.

and rich. he's getting more emotional as the days fly past. as for me, my tear glands are not as active recently maybe cos they are wearing out, but still i feel the pinch as much as he does. my tears might not flow but deep within, my heart cries every morning when i wake and every night before i sleep. cos i know another day with him physically around me has passed.

these days i've been rather cantankerous and impatient, unable to tolerate even the slightest annoyances. esp to my family and more so towards rich.

at times when i think back, i disdain myself for doing such injustice to all those who truly love and care for me. but the reason why im running out of patience as the day draws nearer is really cos i simply dread that day.

cos i am afraid to leave all these precious people and beautiful moments behind.

it's final.

yup i'll be booking an executive suite in aranda country club from wed-fri.

thats the one that the 2/1 guys booked for halloween a couple of yrs back. it's situated in downtown east itself. tmr im gonna make a call to the club to double-check certain stuff and then i'll make the booking.

so those who can make it pls do come down on wed k! if not, then i'll see u on thurs. bbq will be on thurs night.

things that we can do there:

- swim, tan
- go wild at wild wild wet
- eat at all 40+ different eateries.
- bbq!
- marinate food for bbq haha
- mahjong
- bowling
- cycling/rollerblading
- karaoke
- spook each other out with the same old horror stories
- maybe steamboat on wed night
- drink
- play silly games like 5-10, indian poker, who-what-huh and what not.
- get cosy, ooooo....
- and its up to our imagination girls!

but with me around, there'll never be a boring night rite?

oh and we have a special guest..........


the lead from FULL CIRCLE will be there! and he's gonna spend 2 full nights with us.


aren't u girls excited? ;)

all those small things in life.

these few days have been packed to the brim. i'm physically drained.

not one night did i have more than 5hrs of sleep. even when i had the rare chance to do so, my brain refused to take a break and i just ended up tossing and turning till my whole body ached.

but if i had the chance to turn back time, i wouldn't do so even if im offered a million bucks.

cos through all that 'chaos', somehow i've learned to appreciate those small things in life that i'd always conveniently overlooked.

esp today. i've never been the centre of such a huge party. my sweet parents held a farewell party for me, inviting all my relatives on both of my parents' sides. which also include some of my long-distance ones whom i havent seen in donkey years. almost everyone came up to me and gave me some sort of advice, or merely just to wish me luck and success. even those whom i rarely talked to when i saw them previously.

and my cousins on my mum's side are the best. many of them wanted to give me a treat individually. they came up to me one by one asking when will i be free. i would love to go with every one of them if given a choice but the truth is, i don't have much time available cos i've still a million and one things to settle before i fly in 10 days' time.

so one of my cousins came up with a brilliant idea. all of us will meet next saturday and the cousins will pull together their resources and bring me out for the entire day to play, eat and shop - all for free. i love them, really. but at the same time they make me feel so guilty. cos i havent really paid much attention to them in the past and yet they're all so willing to spend quality time with me before i leave.

my uncles and aunties are a wonderful bunch too. every family gave me at least an angbao each and most of them with encouraging words on the red packets. and they were generous with their hard-earned money. of cos i dont mean like a thousand bucks each but we gotta understand that many of them are barely making ends meet and yet they showed no signs of penny-pinching. in fact all of them surprised me with their generosity. a simple 'thank you' is not enough to show my appreciation but thats the best i can offer for now.

just hope i'll not let anybody down with my results. now im truly feeling the pressure.

sigh i've got so much more to tell. so many happenings to blog about and emotions to let out. but for now, i'll leave it at that cos im literally feeling the fatigue from the whirlwind of events. so pardon me while i take a break and ease my exhaustion.

stay tuned cos i'll be back to blabber more.

hmm

hey girls im super ok now, really. was just feeling sorta disorganized. oh yes huishi, i do have a counter at the bottom of the page.

ok so lets put that shocking entry aside and talk bout the hotel thingy ya. will be meeting up huishi and gang (hopefully) in the night to discuss. whoever interested pls join us. as for e rest who wldnt be joining, maybe u can read bout a few suggestions of mine and tell me bout ur opinions?

hmm im thinking of a 4-star hotel instead of 5-star so we can have a 3D2N stay and not bust my pocket? cos im actually thinking of booking 2 rooms per night. haha. or u prefer a 2D1N stay at an extravagantly-posh hotel? lemme know ya?

hey rena, i went to the M Hotel's website but it seems pretty business-oriented to me. there's a large working desk in each room, broadband, computer and facsimilie outlets and some even have an attached meeting room. and i dont really think they're necessary for us so maybe not? but thanks for the suggestion neway.

ok here r some of my suggestions:

1st up - hotel 1929. http://www.hotel1929.com/
ok this is not really a 4-star hotel, more like a budget one. this hotel has been featured in countless newspapers and magazines due to the quirky concept, retro look and affordable prices. i can book a suite there and another deluxe room or sth. downside is that its located in chinatown so probably not very convenient. check it out ya.

2nd - Allson hotel. http://www.allsonhotelsingapore.com/
doesnt have much details on its website. they don't even show their executive rooms but i know they have. its very convenient, right in town area. so check it out.

3rd - Aloha loyang (pasir ris) http://www.aloha.gov.sg/
oh well this is more like a chalet. in fact, it IS a chalet. but hey, this is the only accomodation i can find that is big enough to accomodate all of us. i mean i can book a big bungalow with about 3-4 rooms. and we can have the usual bbq (when was the last time we had tt?) on the 2nd night or sth and i can invite my other frens for the bbq. but the problem with this is that the rates for civil servants and members of the public differs by quite a bit. in fact, members of the public have to pay more than twice the amt. so anyone knows of any civil servant who will be willing to book for us? well i can still pay the public rates though, no worries.

4th - Gallery hotel. http://www.galleryhotel.com.sg/
this is more towards the high end. so we'll probably have to stick with 2D1N if u're interested in this. but well we will of cos be treated like VIPs here so yeah.

ok actually i wanted to list out many more but im running short of time. gtg pack my room before rich comes. well if u have any other suggestions, pls just leave a comment, tag me or drop me a SMS ya?

i really cant decide. so yup lemme know. ;)

as expected.

oh well as expected, had been thinking bout the previous entry the moment i woke up at 6am this morning. currently typing away on rich's super-problematic comp. read the entry again when i finally managed to get this comp started up. guess it sounded too harsh. oh pardon me but that was my truest feelings at tt point of time when i blogged. now that its a whole new day with the fresh sunrays lying on part of my face, i feel brighter, lighter and happier. all those frustrations suddenly seem so silly. btw sorry rena i overlooked your comment cos i thought i read it as another of those endless 'advertising' comment. but i guess i read the wrong one. ok on a lighter note, today's rich big day! went down to padang to support him early in the morning for his 21.1km AHM. phew it's finally over, after 6 painful months of strenuous training! 21.1km really isnt easy. and he did it! he completed in less than an hour 50mins. thats definitely worth more than a kiss and a pat on the back. so how shall i reward him? hmmmm...

disconcerted.

ok yes ppl. i get it. blogspot is dangerous, blogging on blogspot is just like walking on eggshells.

but no offence, in e 1st place havent all of us been very cautious everytime we blog? whether its on blurty, livejournal, blogspot or what not. all online diaries are made public. dats the purpose of having your diary posted on the World Wide Web, isnt it not? i mean if we have wanted our everyday life and thoughts to be kept private, why don't we just jot them down in our own little hellokitty notebooks?

ok so everyone claims they're lazy to write, typing's easier. then why don't u just type your life out on microsoft word? or powerpoint or whatever word programs available on your own Personal comp?

and not publish it on the World Wide Web?

ok so your next argument will be that "but i wana share all my thoughts with my own circle of friends". why don't form a yahoo groups or sth, where only the ppl you have added can read bout your everything? then you'll be 100% (or well, 99.99%) 'safe'.

and hey, whether u're on blogspot, blurty and blah blah, the chances of someone u know accidentally coming across your blog are just about the same. cos WWW = World Wide Web.

if you're so paranoid bout a certain entry, u probably wldnt wana make it public in the 1st place.

and for your info, my sister's blog was on blurty, the apparently 'safer' blogging site. still she got FIRED from her previous job cos of an entry she posted there. and the person who lodged a complaint against her was someone whom she didnt even know.

so tell me again that blogspot is dangerous and blurty is safe.

then again maybe im too worked up over a couple of comments supposedly meant well for me. but im seriously just confused. to sum it up, they are all PUBLIC domains. the risks are always there, and everywhere as long as its on the WWW. we just have to be responsible for every word that we type here, just like being responsible for all other actions in our life.

get it?

sorry i dont mean to wage a war here. but im amused, and perhaps upset that after visiting my blog, ppl are so concerned bout e fact that im blogging on blogspot and 'putting all my frens at risk' of this and that and no one seems to have even mentioned a word bout my entry on the hotel thingy which u have suggested and u have obviously read bout it.

that issue is supposed to have gotten some of your feedback but apparently, none of the feedback is on that. so maybe u guys are not all that interested after those scheduling, planning and researching that i've done on Your preference.

cos right now it's already a Sunday and i was thinking of booking a 3 days 2 nights stay from wed-fri with which thur-fri are meant for u girls. u know who u are.

and i've not gotten a single response when its only 3 days away.

oh whatever. so now i've other plans. cos thurs rich's computer and my laptop will be arriving and we gotta be home. then what? i dun even know when can u make it and i've got so many more things to plan and so little time. urgh im getting frustrated cos i dunno how to schedule everything now. the following week i'll be even more packed. great. aiya maybe we shld once again, forget bout everything.

maybe i shld just go for a 2 days 1 night stay with rich from tue-wed.

and maybe you girls shld just come down to my place on sat, if you can make it and don't mind coming down. since my mum's holding a farewell for me at my place, with my relatives. there'll be no free stay though but there's free food. and i've gotta confirm with my parents by well.. TODAY cos they're making arrangements for the buffet on monday.

so u decide. and hopefully there'll be a response.

and by the way, the reason why i switched form blurty to blogspot was cos i thought a tagboard on my blog could be another avenue of contact between us when im overseas and blurty didnt seem to be able to host a tagboard (well i tried). cos not all of u have msn, and even then, due to e time difference, we wld most probably be online at different timings. and tagging's really easy for like short msges or opinions that u wana share with me.

but since u seem so insecure to leave even a trace on my blogspot's blog, then oh well. maybe i thought too much.

at the end of the day, i hope u'll not take to heart the somewhat harsh tone that's applied here. im really feeling flustered over everything now cos im so unprepared and messy. and u know what, i'll most probably regret ever publishing this entry once i wake up from my slp, or maybe even before that.

till then, we'll see what happens.

all about my own life.

wanted to blog down one whole entry of my frustrations. but i guess not here cos i wana offend nobody.

so i ranted all my irritations, disgruntlement, anger, displeasure and what not on a Private entry on blurty. i guess thats the safest since all online dairies are free for anyone's viewing unless we make a specific entry private.

so what am i gonna write about here? well my life. not so much on my emotions but more on just the physical happenings.

caught the movie 'the longest yard' last night. not bad a show but neither was it impressive to me. plus my body was aching throughout so i didnt thoroughly enjoy it. all cos of a stupid massage tt i went for. i seriously doubt the masseur's skills who apparently claimed to have been trained under some renowned master in china.

oh whatever. what i know is tt i went there with slight muscle aches on the right side of my body and came back with 2 super big blueblacks, each the size of a tennisball, one on my shoulder and another on the back of my neck. and they're causing me hell. whenever i move my arm or neck slightly, my whole body cringes due to the immense pain. i feel half paralysed.

anyway rich had been tolerating my frequent tantrums ytd. cos of the pain, i was super irritable the entire day. thinking bout it now makes so feel so guilty.

shall make it up to him today. so tata. off i go.

photos taken on 31st Aug.

yes finally we received them. photos of hongkong dudes with sg babes. i love them, pretty interesting. enjoy!


from left: kenneth, rena, me, rach and josh (or george).


us again, this time with one-of-a-kind lighting effects.


4 ladies - 3 students with a businesswoman.


we were there.


and we wana restate it again - We Were There. get it?


this photo makes me laugh. can u only spot the 4 ladies? look closer.
oh wat dumb guys. ;)


finally they realised their foolishness. so here's the perfect pic. isnt it interesting?


artsy.


artsier.


someone suggested taking a pic with the sg flag. wrong choice.

psst.

impt announcement:

hey peeps im thinking of booking a hotel room as u girls suggested for 2 nights - one with my darling geeks and another with rich. hee. so which night can u girls make it?

tag or comment here, or drop me a msg to lemme know asap ya.

will u girls be free next thurs till fri? cos i've sth on on fri night and the whole of sat. so the weekend is out so its abit difficult here. hope all of u have no classes on fri?

one more thing - which hotel do u prefer? im thinking of either shangri-la rasa sentosa or fullerton. any other suggestions?

great night, great company, great frens - all tt im gonna miss.

yay my 1st official entry here.

anyway last night was one helluva night with fantastic company.

we went to double o for some free drinks and two jugs of beer arfterwhich we ended up at zouk drinking more and partying harder. it was the 1st time i heard e always-tamed rena actually said "god, im damn high la!" we had tons of fun and i guess most of the fun came from the endless 5-10 games tt we played throughout the night with different ppl and on the dancefloor as we groove to the music.

memorable indeed, very memorable.

and its not only cos of the fun we had that made it so hard to forget. it was most imptly, the company, and the emotions that ran thru me while partying away. halfway thru all that fun, reality suddenly dawned on me - im gonna be away from all these in less than 3 wks' time. far far away. i looked at rena n rach right in front of me, and smiled. but deep inside, i was battling the sadness within. how many more of these nights can i have with my dearest girls before i walk past the customs on tt much-anticipated yet dreaded day?

i love you girls so much. and that applies to rena the gorilla, rach the momo, mel the smelly, huishi the shit, joanne the fanchoy, chris the greedy pig, lidya the laughing buddha, and biyun the pigu. im not gonna add "and anybody else that i've accidentally missed out." cos these 8 of u are my closest frens and anybody else won't be as close to me as u girls.

i wana thank rena for that really touching post on her secretive blog. have been bombarding her with my incessant rantings these days and somehow she managed to tolerate most of them. what a friend indeed, what a true friend. thanks girl, i'll continue to bombard u when im overseas, in whatever ways possible. cos im gonna miss u so much. ;)

gonna miss all of you.

I LOVE YOU darlings!

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