tired, so tired. yet so nolstalgic

it's 11.32pm here.

just bathed. got back from dinner bout 10plus. patrick and jenson asked me to join them for some drinks but i rejected. cos i really don't feel like it. im tired, so tired. yet my mind's so full of things.

things that i just cant leave behind. i might be laughing, teasing, and joking around most of the time. everybody thinks im just crazy. but the reason behind it is simply cos if i don't laugh, tease and joke, i will tear.

i miss my family who loves me so much. i miss my friends who surprised me with their attention, love and concern. i miss rich - my crybaby but my pillar of strength, my love.

everytime i take a look at the encouraging msges from my buddies, i tear. everytime i read the smses and emails sent by my family members, i tear. everytime i hear rich on the line or take a peek at his blog, i tear.

i still cant believe im so far away from all of you.

im getting along really fine here. eating well, surrounded by caring friends, living in a beautiful little small city with a comfortable room.

yet somehow i don't feel complete. maybe i need some time to adapt. or maybe i just feel too strongly for all of you.

i hate to admit it but im really homesick.