best times of my life.

it all started with this:

"Hope the classes aint boring u yet - gd afternoon n lovely day ahead!" - 17/09/04

and it went on:

" 'if the darkness seems 2 keep us apart, n if the daylight seems like a long way afar, n if yr glass heart were to crack, for a second you look back. oh no, be strong. walk on!' i just sang you the only song tt kept me going from the ... and the loneliness, to where i am now, a much better place. walk with me? *extends hand*" - 0611/4

almost losing it:

"ok. i understand tt you wanna walk away, and i will let you but i will stay where i am and watch u walk. because i cannot help but love who i love and this is my truest feeling. and for the 1st time, i dont wanna lie to myself. i gotta be true to my feelings. take care." - 071204

tragedy struck:

"i was at a loss of words when i saw my mum. my whole world came down on me. if it wasnt for you who was there for me unselfishly, i really dont know wat to do. i really wanna thank you and i just cant thank you enough. but i want you to focus on yrself too, for you are so dear to me. have a gd rest k. *hugz*" - 131204

finding the strength:

"i know u dont want this sms but still i rather take the risk tt u might beat me up tmr. i thank you for today and beyond. it is emotionally very tiring for but u always keep my spirits up, holding my hand as i walk on. thank you for showing me the way. nitez my queen ken." - 191204

the birth of the fairytale:

"such a lovely morning, esp the 1st thing i know is tt i have a girlfriend and that she loves me beyond any reason. i want you in my arms now. i want to kiss you now. i want to let the whole world know tt i love you now. haha im such a demanding bf. i miss u sweetheart." - 210105

the magic never dies:

"i kept most of the sms u sent, from when u 1st hardly recognise my existence, to the phase when u told me, 'u like me but cannot love me', to all the love u're giving me now. i honestly thought u'll never give me a chance at all, cos i thought.. wat can i actually give u to deserve yr hand? all i know is tt i was honest with my feelings and i just never wanna let go despite u thinking it wasnt possible. i love you geri and can never let go, be it from the start till ever." - 070405

its only possible with 617:

"bubu...? woah woah... ai wo? bu yao ma wo?" - 060905

the big step:

"i think abt u leaving for uk, i feel so sad. im alone on the bus now, listening to our love songs. its just so overwhelming." - 190905

but if its gonna change anything, its only gonna make this stronger:

"no matter how tough my life can get, knowing tt i have a permanent place in yr heart provides me with all the answers i ever need. i love u geri. happy 1st yr! i will work hard to provide a great future for the both of us." -200105



i think about the days in phut and gab's place with gab and shi. think about mitre. our silly moments and the carefree days. then came the hospital trips. day and night, our usual meeting place will be at the different hospitals. our usual 'dates' involve consoling your mum and dad, consulting docs, arguing with nurses, eating at nearby coffeeshops and foodcourts, going thru physio with ur mum, wiping tears, talking to visiting relatives and friends, cleaning up ur mum, feeding her and making sure her head can touch the bell before we bid our nightly gdbyes. then thankfully ur mum's hme and then we started doing wat most couples do. yet everyday still feels so special with u. and i love them all.

i wana particularly mention the hospital trips. they are so memorable. maybe cos i've never had 'dates' like those. and it never fails to fascinate me how much im looking forward to each 'date'. i didnt care about the movies, shopping was unnecessary, my appetite for steamboats disappeared. in fact i love talking to the patients, covering the neighbouring patient with a blanket, setting up xmas tree for them, staring sternly at the naughty kids who loved to destroy our tree, doing up a mega new year card for ur mum & counting down with her in whispers in the middle of the night. we do the same things almost everyday yet everyday was so fulfilling.

once again ur mum's going to the hospital in april. once again we'll hv to go thru tt when im back for easter. but i assure u tt i wont complain a single bit. u know i wont. cos i know these trips are gonna bring your family much closer to the miracle we've all been praying for the past year.

rich, this is my message to you:


"till death do us part."