i lost myself.

oh well, many things are happening around me. and they are happening so fast im losing grip.

somewhere, somehow, i lost myself. and i cant seem to find it back again. whats my aim in life? wat do i wanna do? wat am i doing? where am i? how do i wanna live my life? am i really happy doing the things im doing now? am i supposed to be doing these things?

whats next?

maybe coming here wasnt such a gd idea. or maybe im in the process of learning the harsh lessons in life. i guess it'll all strike me when the process is over. maybe i'll look back in horror and learn to be a better person then. but right now, i believe im the worst girl on earth.

i've changed, so drastically i believe. and no way is it for the better. or maybe i was like tt all along but circumstances suppressed my true identity.

i dont wish to be who i am now. but who can i blame?