bored.
yes it's the time of the year again - exams.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i think im screwing up my life, in a million and one ways. though i do sillier things in SG and have crazier friends (*wink), i believe im much more sane in my homeland. much much more.
here in uk, i do the stupidest things, like losing my personality.
and i dont think i can ever find myself back again, maybe not until i leave this place. then, it will be too late.
anyway there are lots of speculation, gossiping, assumption going on everywhere around me. many a times, i feel that ppl are giving me weird looks, talking behind my back. someone even told one of my closer friends to beware of me.
and i know the main source of these gossips. someone i cant wait to strangle, torture, and throw to a pack of wolves. but not till i confirm my suspicions. right now, i'll still carry on with a smile and "hi, hows your day" every time i see him. he did it before and now he's doing it again. unbelievable.
yes, we are all guilty of starting or spreading rumours around, but some words are just deadly. people spend much energy listening, thinking, assuming, spreading, so why cant they just spare a minute to confirm the facts?
"what you dont see with your eyes, dont witness with your mouth"
i have a million and one explanations for some of my actions but there are things that i have to keep private. there are things that are personal and i dont want people to know, then sympathise and look at me in a different way. so i chose to ignore the stares and the ridiculous assumptions. but i guess things have gone too far. people are starting to recreate history and accusing me of things i've never done. and the sad thing is they do not have the guts to question me or verify the truth with me. they accuse me behind their backs.
well i guess thats how the world works. im not the only one going thru this, i've also heard 101 things about 101 others. but this time, im not just gonna sit back and swallow whatever's thrown at me, behind my back. this time, im gonna kill you.
ok maybe its the exam stress thats getting to me and this probably sounds like a maniac typing away senselessly. but i guess im the only one who understands.
or maybe i dont.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i think im screwing up my life, in a million and one ways. though i do sillier things in SG and have crazier friends (*wink), i believe im much more sane in my homeland. much much more.
here in uk, i do the stupidest things, like losing my personality.
and i dont think i can ever find myself back again, maybe not until i leave this place. then, it will be too late.
anyway there are lots of speculation, gossiping, assumption going on everywhere around me. many a times, i feel that ppl are giving me weird looks, talking behind my back. someone even told one of my closer friends to beware of me.
and i know the main source of these gossips. someone i cant wait to strangle, torture, and throw to a pack of wolves. but not till i confirm my suspicions. right now, i'll still carry on with a smile and "hi, hows your day" every time i see him. he did it before and now he's doing it again. unbelievable.
yes, we are all guilty of starting or spreading rumours around, but some words are just deadly. people spend much energy listening, thinking, assuming, spreading, so why cant they just spare a minute to confirm the facts?
"what you dont see with your eyes, dont witness with your mouth"
i have a million and one explanations for some of my actions but there are things that i have to keep private. there are things that are personal and i dont want people to know, then sympathise and look at me in a different way. so i chose to ignore the stares and the ridiculous assumptions. but i guess things have gone too far. people are starting to recreate history and accusing me of things i've never done. and the sad thing is they do not have the guts to question me or verify the truth with me. they accuse me behind their backs.
well i guess thats how the world works. im not the only one going thru this, i've also heard 101 things about 101 others. but this time, im not just gonna sit back and swallow whatever's thrown at me, behind my back. this time, im gonna kill you.
ok maybe its the exam stress thats getting to me and this probably sounds like a maniac typing away senselessly. but i guess im the only one who understands.
or maybe i dont.
posted by geri at 12:49 AM
2 Predictions:
i think i noe who that asswipe is...its ok babe...you only need real people ard you...not a bunch of cripass fakos!
i m for real...
--Rich aka Ghetto Bloodz
i m oso real.
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