torn

i never thought i wld blog abt this since i figured no one will ever understand. cos only i know the full story.

but it's just so difficult to handle your pain cos i can understand why u're feeling the way u're feeling. and i feel it, ever so clearly. many a times i wish i can undo the hurt i've done on you, i can ease ur pain by taking back those words. but in reality, this would only cause more pain.

people seem to think that i have the easy part to play. but the truth is i seriously doubt so. i know its goddamn difficult on you to deal with your agony and sorrows. cos u never see this coming and i agree its f*cking unfair to u.

but it's not tt easy too when u have to handle both sides of the story, urs and mine. yours, which u and i fully understand and mine, which only i can identify with.

and when i have to hide all that im feeling.