the ups and downs

last day of work was surprsingly enjoyable. had a meeting with fellow grp members in this cool meeting room overlooking the esplanade from 10am till our presentation at 1230.

presentation was fine, glad the floor didnt post any questions. afterwhich my grp members were nice enough to sneak out of office to hold a mini farewell for me at pacific coffee. had a few laughs over some random topics, including gays and their playtrains. next thurs we'll be having a get-together with all interns (30 of us) at either the loof or mos. pretty happening ppl.

other than work, im kinda sick of everything else. life can get really miserable at times.

i need to get out of this cobweb.

work

it's getting better, maybe cos im leaving.

well, technically, i've got nothing much to do cos my mentor has no work for me knowing that i'm leaving this friday. but luckily we have this grp presentation on friday regarding uk law on duties and liabilities of company directors. so im always telling my mentor that im going for grp meetings or going to the company's library to search for material for my proj when im actually slacking in all sorts of ways.

but we did have a grp meeting today though. and it was kinda fun. booked a huge meeting room with just the 4 of us - eating nasi lemak, talking cock, having a pen-fight and of cos, getting down to some work. oh the scenery was beautiful, esp from the 30th floor.

ok im tired. tmr gonna have another loooong 'meeting'. yay! below is a grp photo of all interns.

random pics

shups, fel, me at mala


me and daph just before acidbar


acidbar with daph, mon and gerald


rich power at mos


getting high at mos


rach bday


liddy's bday


shisha in leicester

continuation of a great weekend

went shopping with mummy today and finally bought the seamless bra that i've been eyeing for a long time. hooray!

Next stop was a sumptous steamboat dinner at beach road with family. And finally - durian at hougang! yummy yum. I love my sunday.

but i hate mondays.

my weekend

fri night was a blast. missed the days when we go crazy together, talked rubbish and simply be stupid. missed the times alone with u girls. and hence, fri night was a revival of the old times and i've never felt so myself again since a long time ago.

oh and i wanna thank jon for helping me with my attachment proj cos i was so lost, as usual. and also for his help with my aunt's insurance claim. he's such a nice guy and a great buddy. i owe him one super big one. ;)

today, went to IMH with a hangover. hardcore rena made me drink one whole jug of long island tea by myself. the last time i actually drank more than 3 glasses of alcohol was the time i got so drunk in revo (uk). so expectedly, my alcohol tolerance went down by quite abit and im happy cos i dont have to spend much on alcohol to get me high. heh.

though tired and bugged by a throbbing headache and this nagging nauseous feeling, i still managed a few laughs with the patients. we're gonna have an outing with the patients in sept! will be heading down to east coast park with them to build those HUGE sand castles with the help of real sandcastle experts. im so excited and will be praying hard for the trip to be in mid-sept instead of end-sept as I will be in uk by then. sigh..

oh and i got a pleasant surprise from rich today. a 15-page proposal and a handmade house with a swimming pool, stable, 2 cars and 3 of my favourite restaurants. my dream home, except it was not life-size. he's really quite creative eh and it seriously did make me smile. thank u rich! u're gooood.

tmr will be heading down to suntec with mummy for a stupid talk and hopefully, shopping!

ok it's bedtime.

what a bitch.

ya thats me.

i've been really cranky these days. my mood swings faster than the pentulum in my grandfather's clock. and the main victims are the usual - rich and my family (esp my mum). it's just so convenient venting all my pent-up anger/stress/greivances on them huh. urgh so pissed with myself.

probably it's work. probably it's something else.

probably it's both.

a record

guess wat? it took me 2hrs to upload these long-overdued pics. tts precisely why they are so overdued.

swiss memories

the place to be


swiss alps


mon, me and jon


in the white rain


mon, me, jon - in front of the swiss casino we went to


the aftersnow


waiting for bus


dont we look professional?


steady me taking a photo of unsteady mon and jon


3/4 way down the neverending ski slope


my swiss car


one of the places we drove to


our cars


parking at our hostel's lot


the caravan place we drove to


homemade choc fondue


preparing to soar


after we landed


my handsome paragliding pilot


jon sneakily taking a photo of the two half-awake girls reluctantly packing up for geneva


geneva


im going shopping!


homecooked food in swiss


two monicas and me enjoying our swiss cheese fondue


last night in switz - lets drink up


can you see the tap of beer we ordered on our table?


yes, we were that hardcore.


drink drink drink


drunk


enjoying ourselves at a swiss club


look who's drunk again


jon: don't tell me u're going to shop with these heavy bags tt we're carrying.
mon: i wanna shop i wanna shop i wanna shop!

calling in sick

im skipping work tmr. yes, only my 6th day of work and im gonna skip. but i really have to. im packed to the brim, suffocated with work and more work. have got singsoc stuff to work on, having just met up with the committee again after work today. and on friday, this professor from leicester uni is coming down to discuss the community work plan tt i've proposed to the school. so i've got ALOT to work on. plus i've also got my legal project to research on as well as to complete this memo for one of the cases im helping out with. yet tmr is an impt work day cos im supposed to finish up the memo for my mentor and have a group proj meeting during lunchtime.

but heck la. im so tired. i feel like im perpetually on slping pills and im beginning to suspect tt im allergic to work. well, at least legal work. i always go to the office feeling healthy though half-aslp, but an hr later i'll be sneezing nonstop and my eyes will soon drown me in a pool of tears. horrible feeling. and my productivity level goes record-low. i mean how much can u concentrate on when u're like using your 7th pack of tissue in 3hrs, with teary eyes and super red, itchy and painful nose?

and im still suffering from tt irritating flu as im typing this. doesnt help tt my cramps started today and are getting from bad to worse as the night progresses. so yea, i've got enough reasons to stay home tmr right?

im sure my mentor's gonna be thinking tt im trying to avoid doing the memo, which is only partially true. if im not feeling so terrible, i wld force myself to do all these terrible work. serious.

but i AM feeling terrible.

you

Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

totally drained

im exhausted.

mentally, physically and emotionally.

working life

cant believe its only my 2nd day of work. im so totally drained. the 9 hrs seemed like 9 years. aft work, im literally like a walking zombie. went to collect my corporate suit and then to steamboat buffet dinner at suntec. wasnt fantastic though. think the mala buffet in bugis was much better.

back home, i've got my singsoc stuff to settle again. i wonder if i can last till the end of my attachment.

but well, the good thing is my mentor spoke to me today! imagine the awkwardness when there were only me and him in his office for 9hrs a day, and we didnt even speak for like more than 10 words ytd. ok 8hrs excluding lunchtime. but near the end of today, we had a long conversation about a lawyer's life, the abusive judges, A&G's corporate culture, the weirdest cases he had handled / heard abt, blah blah blah.

he doesnt seem to be like the lion i thought he was. in fact, i actually learnt alot from our almost 2-hr conversation. and he said smth tt made me think he's the perfect mr-nice-guy. he told me he doesnt want me to keep doing legal research like wat most interns are doing throughout my attachment. of cos, legal research is part and parcel of a lawyer's job but most imptly, he want me to get a real feel of the legal industry. he'll be getting me involved in whatever interesting things tt he's involved in for this whole month. so tmr i'll be following him to a formal meeting with his clients. and on friday and half of next wk, i'll be attending a criminal case trial at the sub courts, most probably sitting in the chambers. so i gotta be in formal black and white. ooo..

yay at least i wont be as bored, though i'll still be burnt out. my mentor is the most considerate boss afterall. oh and he and two other partners will be bringing 3 of us attachees out for lunch sometime soon. before today, i wld hv thought tt the only time the lion would bring me out for lunch was to make me his lunch. he looked so stern i thought he cld really bite.

im just so glad tt i was so wrong.

being a professional

1st day of work - stress and more stress. doesnt help tt me mentor is not the talkative type so for 1/2 of the day, i was sitting right in front of him in his office, pretending to look busy while trying hard not to fall aslp. having nothing to do is the ultimate stress.

then came the work. well, i shld be happy tt im helping out on a big ongoing case now so at least im learning. but there's so much legal research to do. spent near to 2hrs in the company's library searching thru books aft books, photocopying, highlighting, summarising and organizing. the lawyers will be attending another court session for this case so im hoping to tag along. well, having work to do is not relaxing either, esp when i've got to bring work home to do!

but it was fun wearing the lanyard with our access card ard raffles place. each card is personalised with our name and Allen&Gledhill printed bold over it. so people look at us like 'wow she's a lawyer'. haha cheap thrill. luckily the work 'intern' was not on the card. heh

and the best part? A&G has lowered their standard of formality for dressing this year. so there's no colour code though we still have to look corporate. well, i dont have to be black and white everyday, unless attending court sessions. oh and thank pek for giving me directions and advising me on how to go abt doing my work. i wld have been so lost.

oh and the movie Click was gd, tho predictable. pastamania was nice too, but i had too much. and thanks rich for the little gift today during lunch. it was very sweet of u.

came back ome to more legal work and singsoc stuff. gosh im racing agst time. and its an amazing race indeed.