battered

i just majorly screwed up all my 3 papers. how? what if i can't grad with a second upper degree? how? no 2.1 means no hopes of ever being a lawyer. how? not that i yearn to be one, but i cant witness 3-yrs of hard work (like real) and tons of money wasted on stupid me just like that, right? and the problem is i had the answers all stored up somewhere up there right before i entered the exam hall. but somehow during the 3 hrs of the paper, everything just went *poof*. gone. just like that.

i'm now having an exam-phobia. i can't even fall aslp for a single minute the night before the exams and this contributed to all that exam nerves.

one more paper to go. it's the last ray of hope left. but i'm taking a break for now.