my life in brief.

havent been much in contact with my compatriots back in the home country. how's everyone? more alive than me of course. mum just called chiding me for trying to avoid her incessant calls, emails and msn messages, which is only partially true. i just happen to always miss her calls and i've only zero credit left in my sim card till the 8th of nov so that explains why i havent been calling back. as for emails and msn messages, im just plain lazy.

anyway for the benefit of my kinsmen, here's a brief update of my days in leicester. nothing happening really. hmm where shld i start? ok weather. it's getting cold but still not cold enough to freeze the balls of a brass monkey. temp ranges from abt 7 - 16 degrees maybe?

sch. been skipping lects but at least i attended my 1st tutorial ytd - human rights. pretty engaging. oh for a start, i've been to the 24-hr medical library last night at ard 1am hoping to do a little catching up myself. no significant progress but well, at least it's a start.

food. havent been cooking much other than the occassional regale with fellow singaporeans stuck here. the last was the sumptous steamboat in our kitchen that lasted 2 nights. more often than not, i'll be surviving on cup or instant noodles.

entertainment. other than the weekly revo nights, theres really nothing much going on here. hmm we'll be heading down to the theatres to catch marie antoinette in a few hrs' time. yup and cambridge last sat was not too bad. punting was fun, probably cos my punt consisted of 3 guys out of 5 persons, one of which was previously from dragonboat. so we had not much of a problem maneuvering the wooden punt ard the charming River Cam. this sat will be heading down to liverpool with daph to join in michelle & brandon's (friends i gotta know thru my law internship) bday celebration. will be spending the night at mich's hse. oh and we're planning ahead for halloween - chinese vampires. hmm but nothing surprising if all dont turn out as planned, cos thats usually the case.

that leaves us with well, emotions. in all honesty and if you will pardon my french, i feel like fuck. in proper english, that simple means i dont feel happy. whats new, right? ive got no reason to jump for joy. so till the next or rather, my 1st lottery strike, i'll probably continue sulking away and feeling nothing more than jaded.

and that's it folks. pictures later.

but before i draw the curtains, HAPPY 21st CHOY DARLING (praying i got the date right)! stay sexy. love!

today

this morning, i got out of bed on the wrong side. the moodiness continued for the entire day other than the occasional forced laughters and the few sudden outbursts of 'excitement'.

at least the steamboat was satisfying and the wet trip to the chinese shop was hmm.. enlightening. oh and i think i ought to mention this - that daph darling has been such a well, darling. besides the fact that she sleeps 15hrs a day.

this sounds random but i feel a strong need to hold my horses and probably make a retreat back to solitude before things get out of hand.

easier said than done. how.

tabula rasa

im missing classes again. and again.

next week on, i'll start with a clean slate. come hell or high water, you'll see me mugging at the medical library at least twice a week.

oh come on, call me a nerd.

revo nights

crossroads

Between the devil and the deep blue sea, i dont have much of a choice do i?

come what may, i'll just have to bite the bullet.

new tagboard, same old me.

finally. i've got a new tagboard. Tagboard Message Board probably cut some thousands of ppl, including myself, off from one of our very limited means of communication with our fellow gossipers. aiya im just thrilled to have a tagboard agn. so tag me tag me.

thought of revamping my entire blog - replace the blogskin with something much more vibrant, take away tt gloomy pic at the top and substitute it with one thats spells merriment, re-typing my profile blah blah. all these to go along with the introduction of my new tagboard. so i can better fit the bright-eyed and bushy-tailed image tt everyone has of me.

yet, after spending two whole hours sourcing for a funky sunny pic and a blogskin that i can envision myself staring at everyday, im back to the square one again. thoughts of livening up my life well.. will just remain as thoughts, at least for now.

yep, some things just cant be changed.

the apocalypse of the war within

i wish i cld just pack my bags and leave. but where to? the insomnia, the nightmares, the bad memories, the gd memories, the solitude, the uncertainty, the congestion, the home that i cant bring myself to return to - they necessitate a more effective form of escapism.

i wish i cld indulge in the 'me-first' materialism so prevalent in this world.

i wish somebody cld fathom the reasons behind my doings, and undoing.

i wish i cld just stop laughing.



im washed-out.

news

i have decided.

this winter i will not be heading home. will be travelling around europe with the rest of the leicesterians instead.

so i'll see you in june next year.

fuck

i just fucked up my whole life. fuck me.